Theological question

So I'm reading a Max Lucado book called "In the grip of grace" and there was this one part that Max (him and I are like best friends so we are on the first name basis) mentioned Jefferey Dauhmer... the man that killed like 17 people and ate them. This man did awful and brutal things to these people and during the trial showed absolutly no remorse. Then while he was on death row he became a "born again christian", a few months later an inmate killed him. So I'm reading this and I got really bothered by it. So here's where I just want anyones input. I to a degree can understand God's grace, and that God will completly forgive our sins when we repent, but what about God's justice? I fully believed growing up that there are consequences for our actions. I just don't know if I can see God's justice in this story. Or should I not even try too look for it b/c he was no worse a sinner than I am? I don't know if I am even making sense it is just something that I have been thinking about for a while now and just wanted peoples input. Thanks friends :)

Santa Came

So it's Christmas eve night and I am doing my journaling. Then I look at my watch and was like oh no it's 11:30 I need to make sure that I have the lights off by midnight. Somehow I had fully conviced myself that santa was coming and that I had to have the lights off. So I'm in bed with the lights off and I'm like "Oh mi gosh I heard Reindeer! SANTA'S HERE!" and then I was like OH MI GOSH HEATHER! You are 22 years old and still believing in santa. But he did come and he left me two stockings worth of stuff. Apparently I was a really good girl this year!

Clean up on Isle 8

So yesterday I was at Safeway doing a little grocery shopping with my roommate. As soon as we walked in I was like "Julie (my roommate) I have to urinate" and she said we would shop quickly and go home. So we go to the juice section and she always gets cranberry juice and I always make fun of her for it. So as she's getting the juice I was like "You should get two for your bladder infection" because there was a guy standing right there. She started laughing (we just finished finals so we're intoxicated with out the toxic stuff). THIS GUY just starts going off about how this kind of cranberry juice isn't as good as the other for bladder infections la la la. And he's getting all techincal on me and I'm just saying "Ya, no that's true." and going along when I have no idea what hes saying to me. Though he does admit to have some bladder problems himself. The things strangers tell me. He leaves,my roommate is on the floor laughing and me... I'm peeing my pants. It wasn't like a river flow but I had to take a shower when I got home. BUT THE WORST PART was when I was leaving this guy was like Have a good night Heather. I grew up with him since I was 2 and he's now the store manager. I was like uh Robert... there's a clean up on isle 8... ya... I peed my pants... sorry.

And I wonder why I don't have a boyfriend? I'd probably pee my pants on our first date. So... that's my pant peeing story. This is just me, being vulnerable, and in need of a friend :)

Pray For Jake

Some of you already know this story but I felt I needed to share it again because now I have something to add on to it. Okay when we first found out that I had bad ovaries, we also found out that I had a tumor. So I call my dad and I was like hey... I have to go to the dr. to check this out la la la. And my dad was like ya okay, hey you can be praying for Jake he hasn't been eating all that much. Okay Jake is my DARN DOG!!! Poor little guy wasnt eating that much, but don't worry about me I just have tumors and cysts. Then today I found out that my grandma has to have heart surgery ASAP. So my dad was telling me that Grandma's biggest concern is "Who's going to take care of Donald?" Donald would be her gay (literally gay) bassett hound. What is wrong with my family?! How am I related to them? ;) jk.
So last night I spent the night at Stacey's and some stupid person called at 8:00am. Why? But all I hear stacey saying is "If you call this early I'm not going to buy anything" Apparently I yelled out "I'll buy it! I want it" And she told me to shut up. I asked her what they were selling and she said "MCI" And I was like YES DEFINITLY MINE! And then I went right back to sleep. I didn't remember doing that until Stacey told me this morning.
So moral of the first story is if something is really wrong.. pray for your pet. And the moral to the second story is I'm just as funny sober as I am intoxicated ;)

Urination Station

So last year as a prank my old roommate and his friend filled up all these dixie cups and put them all over my truck. But inside of some of the cups they had little gold fish. There were about 50 of them, now, there's 4. Sad days huh? Anyways my roommate and I are apparently in charge of them this year so we had agreed to put them in our room. I was feeling a little sick after church (maybe it was God's convictions or something) and so I took a nap. I wake up an hour later and I was like Holy Mother of nights I have to urinate like there's no tomorrow. My roommates had brought up the fish tank so the filter is a constant water flow. I told my roommate that I'm going to need a bed pan because that things going to make me urinate all the time.
Oh I have to say sorry to anyone that I have accidentally called the past few weeks. I know Dad said I called him for like 40 seconds or whatever (Sorry Aaron) and I called a few others, sometimes my keys don't lock. So it's been fun when people call me and were like I heard that you are in love with Kyle Smith... oh dang it Kyle... I hope you knew. Anyways I had my first final tomorrow and I'm babysitting a 5 month old baby till 11:00. I'm excited. anyways I hope you all are doing well. I swear I'll have more of an interesting story but really I just wanted to say hi to all of you lovely people!

Emotional Girl

I was BEYOND emotions last week. Everything was making me cry! EVERYTHING. But the worst of it was this.... On friday my friend Megan and I went Christmas shopping for our friend Kyle I knew exactly what i wanted to get him but we couldn't find it any where. Finally after a few hours of shopping (and I am not a shopper at all) we found it. We got him a stuffed animal donkey and we took it to Build a Bear. Then I did a little saying in it and we got it all finished. We did some minor shopping after that as I carried around this huge ass... not mine the donkey. And I thought it was so cute so I would say "Who's the cutest donkey ever? You are yes you are!" (that's what I get for being a full time nanny). Anyways we went and dropped it off in Kyles truck b/c he wasn't home. Okay guys get ready... I started crying. not just like oh tear... but like hyperventalating crying. I couldn't even stop. So I started to laugh so it looked like I was laughing so hard I was crying but no. ANd megan was like heather we need to go and I was like "I .... can't... drive...." sob sob. I cried until we got on the freeway. Pure raw emotions. We back to my apt and we watched Shrek and i started crying because I missed donkey.
So you know you have hit an ultimate low when you start crying about giving away your donkey:)

High maintance

So those of you who know me know that you might call me... "emotionally high maintance". ( Alyssa I can actually hear you saying "uh yeah you are Heather"... so shut up) But today I for sure acted out on being high maintance. I called a bunch of people... okay like 3 and only stacey answered but after we talked for a little bit she got off the phone. Alyssa you didn't answer either. ANYWAYS, so I texted my friend Kyle (not our Kyle Smith) and asked him why he was ignoring me. And then with in a few minutes he called and asked what was wrong. I said nothing, and he was like why did I have to call? And I said I just needed some attention, I just need a friend Kyle. But then after a few minutes he had to go back to class. Sometimes I just want to talk. :) So I came home and did interpetive dancing to Celine Dion... by myself. It was fun when ever duets came up :)
I was also thinking of all this remanising that we were doing about the first time I met Kyle Smith. And I told him that my best friends name is Kyle and since his name is Kyle that him and I were going to be best friends. And he looked at me and said "YOUR A FREAK". Ya we had just met, he didn't even know my name. I almost cried. Oh man... those were the good ol days!! :) :)