He made me cry

So let me throw this disclaimer out right now, I'm not the best parker... I know this... my friends know this... there's no secret to it. Okay, so I'm at safeway buying some food for our leaders dinner. I walk out and this guy is blocking my truck in, and writing a note. So I'm thinking, oh crap, he totally hit my truck. I'm looking at it, it was parked in the lines it's just not perfectly straight. I walk over and say "Hi" to the man... he looks at me and asks "Is this YOUR truck?!" And I smile and say "yes it is". He opens his door and says nice parking *itch. And drives off. I stood there for a second, and then just start crying. I haven't cried in months, at least 8 months right, and there's been a lot of tough stuff happening. But this man says one sentance to me and it just does it for me. But I only allow myself to cry for one minute, then I suck it up because I have to go to a meeting. Some people are just NOT nice!
I officially started working with the 8th grade girls, all 18 of them. Yappers Crappers! They are all so energetic... SOOOO energetic. and boy crazy. And I hear all my old youth leaders sighing their "this is sweet justic" sigh. Come to find out I was just like these girls in jr. high. We had the super hero night and we were the Galaxy Galloping Girls for God. And we had these coconuts to make the galloping noise. Some jr. high boy comes up to me and says "hey... nice cocunuts" and kind of laughed. and I asked him what that meant. Then he got embarrassed and walked away. What does it mean?!

Deeper Still

So it's been a hard week, actually its been a hard couple of weeks. I haven't been able to feel rested, and I thought it was because I'm getting old.. you know almost 23 is like over the hill! I've had to take naps in the middle of the day in order to get THROUGH the day! It's ridiculous, but I realize that a lot of it is because I am so emotionally exhausted. This week so many things have come up. I've taken a few steps back with my friends, and had some harsh realitys be slapped in my face. I have always known that God designed me to be a relational girl, where I will do anything for my friends if possible. But I realized these past few weeks, actually even these past few months, that my friends wouldn't really do the same for me. I think what hurts the most is to know that some of them flat out just don't care. But what's been good about all of this is that it has brought me to a point where I fully rely on God right now, and daily have to ask for Him to carry me. So I guess losing some friends is the price I have to pay in order for God to get my full attention.
So I have a youth event coming up and we have to dress up as super hero's. And we can make them up... I think we should be Super Nun's. We have to go through a corn maze and I'm pretty sure the texas chainsaw guy will try to kill me. (Not if I'm a Super Nun though!) give me some ideas for super hero's... I know you guys have some fun ideas!!

Scream my lungs out and try to get to you

Can I just vent really quickly a frustration I have?! What the heck is up with guys and being leaders? Why don't guys step out anymore and take the initative? I just started working with my youth group (8th grade girls... I am your new role model!!) and my youth pastor said that we now have plenty of girls working with the youth group but we are short on guys. I feel like this is such a commen trend. I don't understand why our society is trying to femenize guys so much and why we don't allow them to go with their instincts to want to be hero's and go to battel and all that. Anyways it just frustrates me.
I saw this amazing movie called "Crash". Oh mi gosh! Its AMAZING! My friend and I were screaming at the t.v. and crying. I HIGHLY recomend this movie.
My friends house caught on fire this weekend and it destroyed everything. Fortunatly his whole family was out, but his dogs were inside and died in the fire. It rocked us pretty intensly, but he's remaining such a rock... I feel that he is still in shock.
Hey those of you that have worked with jr. highers I would love to hear some pointers. I worry that they won't like me or won't think I'm fun. If you have any advice.. I would treasure it... just like I would treasure you!